We are in that stage where it seems our lives are consumed with the college search. Monday we went on a tour of Lee University, a small Christian college in Tennessee. After the tour, whatever reservations I had were negated. So I asked Caitlyn what she thought. She said, "I guess I'm just not going to have that 'This is it' feeling. I like it, but I just don't know." Well, okay. That was the last of the three colleges she had on her very short list.
I posted on Facebook that evening that we were praying for God's direction as she chooses where to spend this next part of her journey. Yesterday at school a colleague and I were discussing the situation and I jokingly said, "Cait wants God to come down and say, 'Thou shalt go to...' whichever school he wants her to attend."
Are you ready for this?
Caitlyn came home from school yesterday so excited she could hardly stand it.
"Has Mr. Lindley called you?" (her high school band director)
"Let me just tell you, Mom. Mr. Lindley called me in to his office today and asked me if I was really interested in Lee University. I told him I was. He asked if I planned to play in any of the ensembles and I told him I wanted to, and would really like a scholarship to play, but I wasn't sure if they let non-music majors do that. So Mr. Lindley called his 'friend', who is, like, the director of all the bands at Lee. The man said that they do allow non-music majors to play and they do offer scholarships.
"Then Mr. Lindley asked him about their honor band. And the man said that the applications were over a month ago, but they had one of the four alto saxes drop out yesterday. He said if Mr. Lindley would recommend me then I could have that spot!"
I was floored. So in the blink of an eye, my daughter is going to be playing in the Lee honor band in two weeks. Under the direction of the head of bands at Lee University. In a band that only accepts 4 alto saxes, and she has a spot over the 90 applicants who applied. This will give her a foot in the door when she auditions for a spot in any ensemble at Lee.
So, I guess, sometimes God does come down and say...
This past week our faculty lost a valiant lady. Suzan Phillips Estes was a wife, mother, teacher, and friend. I had the privilege of working with her at AES for only two years, but knew her to be devoted to her family and her career for many years previously. Her battle with cancer was horrific, but her witness throughout was a great inspiration to all who knew her.
Her husband, Ryan, was given grace to speak her eulogy at the funeral on Wednesday. And once again God was glorified through this family. One truth Ryan spoke was from a note written in Suzan's Bible. "Peace is better than understanding", written beside the verse that proclaims that Christ gives us peace that passes all understanding. While I had never thought about peace being better, I certainly understood it in that moment.
Many times, events happen that I don't understand. My father's diagnosis with ALS...and his cure. The Tsunami in Indonesia and Thailand. My Aunt Jackie's early passing. My son's struggles. But I can look back at those instances and see that there were times when God gave me peace. And although my personality is the type that longs to understand, to make sense of the world around me, there are times that I have to simply fall back on my faith.
God is still good. The world is not. He has overcome the world and calls me his child. So I can believe the verse in Romans that proclaims "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." This verse does not say all things are good, but that God is working through those things for our good. So when I don't understand the "why", I can cling to the hope that God is still with me.
And I know that while we are still here on this earth we have a mission. So I am making a firmer choice to be an encourager, a positive influence on those around me, and to share the power and grace of Christ every chance I get. Thank you, Suzan, for inspiring me to be better.
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